Ahhhh, an official blog!

I was kind of mad at myself. My blog that I was into and posted on a few times I messed up all the like passwords/usernames with old blogs I had and couldn’t get back onto it!!

This one WILL be it though.

“If I get it all down on paper, it’s no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you’ll use them, however you want to”

I kind of decided my name of my blog didn’t fit my theme before either though.

(I’m not totally happy with the way this one looks but I will keep working on it…. but thats another story :p)

The name of this blog came from one of my favorite movies and probably my very favorite character. Someone I relate to. Its Beth from little women. As her dying words she says something that is so true to me. How I feel with my life and family.

“Beth: If God wants me with Him, there is none who will stop Him. I don’t mind. I was never like the rest of you… making plans about the great things I’d do. I never saw myself as anything much. Not a great writer like you. 
Jo: Beth, I’m not a great writer. 
Beth: But you will be. Oh, Jo, I’ve missed you so. Why does everyone want to go away? I love being home. But I don’t like being left behind. Now I am the one going ahead. I am not afraid. I can be brave like you.”

Truer words about my feelings will never be said.

Not that I haven’t had things I enjoyed or wanted to do. I have never been a big planner, dreamer, or anything though.

I compare Beth’s piano playing in the movie to my agility/dogs. I love it and it just gives me joy. I don’t want to do anything crazy. I just want to DO it. Enjoy it with my family and others. Just Play. No big plans. Just doing it.

So this blog will be all about just living. Being brave, having fun, living.

“Courage doesn’t always roar.  Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I’ll try again tomorrow.”  ~Mary Anne Radmacher