Be Thou My Vision (a lesson in love, life, and loss)

Through the eyes of men it seems
There’s so much we have lost
As we look down the road
Where all the prodigals have walked
One by one
The enemy has whispered lies
And led them off as slaves

But we know that you are God
Yours is the victory
We know there is more to come
That we may not yet see
So with the faith you’ve given us
We’ll step into the valley unafraid, yeah

One year ago today my Grandmom was taken from this earth and restored in His heavenly kingdom. A truly beautiful and wonderful thought.

Yet, every day the devil feeds me lies.

She should be here. Why did she have to die? She would be happier to see all we are doing. To be here to love us. To see her grandchildren get married or her great grandkids learn to walk and talk. There is nothing better than that right?

I am here to tell you, that for my Grandmom there is. Not that she didn’t love us. Not that she didn’t wish she could be here with us. She lived her life though, and she lived it for her God. The one she gets to praise every single day without human worry or sickness now. She was called home because her job here on earth was done. And she gets to live there for eternity.

Oh how we can’t wait for the day we can join her. When we can worship our God with her. When we can love without limitations and human sin. When we can be truly complete in Christ.

Oh the beauty of the King
You make righteous those who seek
You have written and redeemed my story

Let my eyes see Your kingdom shine all around
Let my heart overflow with passion for Your name
Let my life be a song, revealing who You are
For You are salt and light

But first, we have a life to live. We do not know the day we will die. We do not know if we will live till tomorrow or 70 more years. That is not for us to know. All we need to know, is that we have a Savior who saves us every day. Who is there to redeem us. Who is there to love us in all our imperfection because in His eyes we are perfect when we trust in Him. When we ask him to make us perfect.

That is all my Grandmom wanted in life. To love and praise her God. To give him all the glory and let others know. To sing praises to him anytime she could. To love every person around her, to show Christ’s love.

We live in a world of fear. What will tomorrow be like? What will I do if I have no money? Why does this person hate me? What will I do if I lose this person?

Those fears are nothing in Christ. When we truly trust and love him, we have perfect peace. He cares for us. He will take care of all our NEEDS. No matter if the times are rough or easy.

He never promised we would have it easy. He did promise to be with us though. To keep us focused. To show us beauty in everything. Even the darkest hours when hope seems gone.

1 year from that date, and my family is dealing with saying goodbye to more family members. Its easy to give up. To say we are just done with this and we don’t want to feel anymore pain. To not want to ever lose someone again. Sadly, that’s impossible. Loved ones will pass away. They will get to be made perfect again when they know God though. We will see them again. Until that day, we carry on. We live, and love, and keep on spreading His love. There is nothing more we can do.

 I miss my Grandmom more everyday. As I grow closer to God though, I feel her closer. I know she is proud. I know she loved me. I know she wants the best life for me. Not one of sadness missing what could have been. My God is enough. People will fail but my God is enough. He is what gave me her (and all my other loved ones) and everyday I will sing His praises for it.


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