I had a major realization tonight when driving home that left me utterly speechless. A true story of God’s grace and overwhelming love for us in our darkest days. Because every day is the chance for another day of sun.
You are golden
You are golden, Child
You are golden
Don’t let go
Don’t let go tonight
We are going to take this post back to 2017. On May 25th I celebrated my 25th birthday. My golden day. It was nothing like I always thought it would be. I made a decision that day though to live my next year as I was made to. As a golden and loved child of God. No matter what life had in store for me. I was coming off a few harder years and the coming year was stacking up to be the same.
June 2017 I took a trip to Alaska. We were there on a what man would call impossible mission. We had to repair a roof with pennies when we needed thousands. On top of that we spent the week praying for sunshine. We had rain and we needed sun.
With arms open wide
I’ll be your umbrella when you just can’t stand the rain
I’m there by your side,
I wanna be your shelter when you just can’t stand
When you just can’t stand the rain
While in Alaska, back at home my golden sunshine left us on June 19th. We lost my first dog, our 12 year old Golden Retriever, Levi. The rain was still falling in Alaska and my heart was feeling it. My golden sunshine was hard to find. My golden days were failing. I prayed for sun and felt the rain falling.
On June 22nd I saw the true miracles of God fully. I watched a group of guys whom I admire so much trust fully in the power of God and the sun. I watched the sky open up and pour down sun on them, and only them. I saw a impossible job finished in the sun. I watched an impossible task become a possible finished one.
On June 25th, my sunshine entered the world again to stay.
The day you strolled in, my heart was stolen
‘Cause you are golden
I didn’t know it that day. I didn’t know until about 3 weeks later. That day though, my sunshine came to stay. Just days after losing my golden sunshine, heavens gift sent us another day of sun.
When I first met Hope at 3 weeks old, I knew she was mine. I knew she was my sunshine. I had lists of names and ideas. I tried to pick something different. I kept going back to this simple little name though. Hope. Hope for days of greatness. Hope for days of golden sun again.
She has truly been my sunshine. Even on the rainy days. We have kept that super special connection and she is the golden sunshine I was made to have.
In the course of a week, God showed me the true meaning of my golden year. He showed me the golden days. He showed me that even in the rain, the sun will shine. That even the darkest days will send sunshine.
Also, the sun rises and the sun sets; And hastening to its place it rises there again. – Ecclesiastes 1:5
I never really connected all those things together before tonight. I never realized the true impact of the whole thing. How all those golden days were teaching me something. I felt them all individually but I didn’t realize how they all fit together. How in my golden year he taught me the true meaning of the sun and rain.
No longer will you have the sun for light by day, Nor for brightness will the moon give you light; But you will have the LORD for an everlasting light, And your God for your glory. “Your sun will no longer set, Nor will your moon wane; For you will have the LORD for an everlasting light, And the days of your mourning will be over. – Isaiah 60: 19-20